Laziness

Absolutely serious must do right away plan

1. lose weight

2. try to eat healthier

3. sleep early (2 am. the latest)

4. cook more

5. wake up no later than 12

6. shower everyday

7. clean my room

8. wash clothes more often

9. do more things

10. try to go out more

11. spend less time on the computer

12. move more

13. do some real exercise or at least dance 15 mins. every day

Most importantly is STOP BEING LAZY! 

I have been wasting too much time sitting on my gigantic butt and just being lazy for way too long. This is unacceptable even to me. My mom never say anything but i know she feels something awful about it. In her mind she must have think what's got into her daughter. Well the laziness got into me, mom but now i have such a strong will to kick it OUT. Like seriously! I can't believe i still got this big Mcdonald garbage bag full of like 5 empty ice cream cups and burger wraps and french fries boxes and uncountable ketchup packets i ordered just to calm my late night craving of junk foods like 3 weeks ago or when was that i can't even remember. It was that long time and the bag still in my room. No smelly smell yet that's why i don't even bother to take it out. 

Ok being unemployed means i have so much free times i could do whatever the hell i want to do or not do the hell at all which is exactly what i am doing now. But it's not right. I'm free from all the responsibilities at the moment but at least .. one thing.. just this one thing, I still need to be responsible at my own self. And I'm being so irresponsible at myself right now and it starts to make me feel a little crappy. Like what am i doing i'm just wasting my time and my youth and my life and everything. I should at least take care of myself and i'm not even doing that. I am just too busy doing absolutely nothing except for the things i wanna do (which consist only of me eating and being on my laptop all day) So the problem is that it's nothing i do. Zero! I didn't do shit. How scaringly unhealthy is that? I've become horribly horribly lazy. And trust me laziness is like the most evil behavior of all the other evil behaviors out there.         

I'll update later. But tomorrow i'll be waking up at ... no more than 12. That's still late but since i've been getting up at 4 pm. everyday lately, 12 will most likely feel like 6 o'clock in the morning to me.

But I'll try set an alarm at 11 am. first. 11 with snooze. 

Hope it works. 

Today I'm thankful for:

The fact that i try to get rid of the laziness and a good plan for tomorrow.
and the fact that the world has someone so amazing like Ellen. Everytime I watch her show I fall in love with her all over again.

Problem is that it's not just shower. First it's shower, then it's the applying lotion all over your body process. That always take long. And you can't just choose to do one thing like shower but no lotion. Or can you? It just doesn't feel right. It's like if you do it you do it good or not do it at all. 

And what if it's 4 am. and you're kinda smelly but not 'that' smelly?