X'mas & new year

Kinda too late to blog about X'mas and new year now but anyway

Really wasnt doing much to celebrate it. Just had a long holiday which i spent that wisely by did nothing but ate everything i wanted(that ended up with some impressive gain) and feel lonely especially on the 31th where instead of went out with friend, i decided i will just gunna be home becuz i had been bingeing so much a week before(since x'mas or no.. honestly before that) and so on new years eve i felt too fat to go out and do things so i stayed home bingeing again...like who cares about celebrating new year fuck it i have my food and youtube and the whole house is mine to enjoy. Anyways...that fuck it feeling lasted only around midnight when  hearing all the fireworks and me peeking through the windows and door to see them from my hiding space and i felt left out. I can tell it's a bad feelings. I dunno why but i tends to feel more lonely around the holiday time, especially x'mas and new year. The holiday would pass by and i'd enjoy myself if only i go out and do things but often times im not sure why i always end up too lazy to go out and believe i'm gunna be fine being home then everytime ... not as fine as i thought i'd be.

I hope 2016 i can change that. Be more outgoing and less lazy and you know...just really spending every moments wisely so you have no regrets you should've done that...   

˙˙ Some X'mas photos ˚˚

Star lighting and the neighbor house

I feel in love with this snowman lightbulb 

X'mas nail sticker theme

Oops I did it (nails) again 

Dinner

Jeaden and the X'mas tree >o<

Must have gingerbread house 

A little gift  for my host family : )

The weather is getting colder now finally , way later than i expected. I still went out for a walk this afternoon. It was around -4 and i was out for about 20 mins and felt cold and my face was red already so maybe no more power walk this month -o-

I can't wait to go back to Thailand now. It's so funny I have so many plans to do and for once i feel like its really something i want to do and it will make sense not only for me but for the ones i love and I can't wait to do them. Can't wait to see my grandmom and to be a better me for my mom and my family. It will be a new beginning again and i want to get it start already.