It was...hmm..I'd say ok..but...it's hard to even explain it but i will try. It felt like it's just not the place for me. But i'd rather say that maybe the church itself is the place for me because i remember how I always like to go sit in the church when i went to christian school. It's peaceful in there but here it's totally different. They are so many people singing and dancing and chatting and to be honest I didn't feel a second of peaceful mind while i was there.
I was invited by the girl i know through facebook. And mostly all the church people are filipinos. and from what i've seen so far, filipinos people are sooo social! And i always get scared a little by people who are too social. It's not that they are not nice. It's actually the opposite, they are super nice and friendly and very welcoming new faces who join them there. But i guess that's why i don't feel comfortable. I just prefer shy people(maybe because we always like thing that's similar to us?) And another thing i feel a little uncomfortable is how they talk and pray to god. They seem so intense. It seems like everything they do in life is revolved around god. On their fb page they post about all things about god. They actually invited me to someone's house after the church ended yesterday just to hang around and watch some movies. Sure i didn't go. I just needed to say no which's not very nice of me consider how nice they were. But what i understood in my head at the moment when they said 'watching movie' i thought they meant they're gonna watch some normal hollywood movie or something like that. But later i realized it's actually movie about god that they watched.
Maybe i have so much sins in me I just can't seem to live my life that close to god like how they do. But naw i don't think i am, even after i just found out i didn't like church here >.< But I guess anything that's too much and too intense just not gonna work for me. I'll continue my belief that everything should be in moderation. Nothing too much or too little and you'll be just fine. It's what they called ''the middle path'' and that's actually buddhist. Technically, i'd say I'm buddhist but it really doesn't matter. I'm more of a little bit of everything. I often pray to god. I don't know if god will really listen to you if you're not entirely christian/catholic and I don't even know what's the difference between them. But still, i pray.
I talked to a few filipino girls there. They seems very nice or if i say it right...they seems too nice it makes me uncomfortable. But there's one girl her name is Joan. She looks real nice and not too nice like others and i like her. She's actually the one who invited me on fb. But the problem is i dunno if any of them will still want to hang out with me if i'm not going to join them in church anymore. And I'm also not sure about that myself if it'll be fun to hang out with them out of church. It could be possible they talk about god all the time ? Or they might try to ask me to go to church again. They already did that and i felt just sorry i had to deny them...
Oh well..I'll see what happen!
I also met with Fernando at the church. It was crazy enough i invited him but it's crazier when he wants to come even though he knows he's gonna hate it. But he came anyway and he hated it lol but well we got to meet for the first time. He's not as tall as i thought he'd be and his english is quite a problem which he warned me before but it was all funny because of that. And it was a good idea I invited him there because i was feeling so awkward sitting there in the church counting how many minutes have passed already so this could end and right next to me he's sitting on his chair looking like he's also having the best time of his life lol no just he looked like a bored panda and didn't seem like he knew what the hell he's doing here. It makes you feel ok to know you're not the only one who doesn't feel right in the place where other people seem to enjoy so bad. The girl 'Joan' she has to take a bus for 1 hour to come here every saturday just for this. And she pays the ticket herself. I'm stunned but a lot of respect to that.
It was such a bad weather on saturday and super windy even when you walk in the city. It's possible you could get blow away by that wind right in the city center. It's crazy the weather, rain, snow, sunshine, everything in one day. And each of them come with their full performances. But i bet there will be times when i will see worse. This is probably just a greeting from the city of Bergen says...WELCOME Ploy!
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| Fer took it when we're out from mcdonald and walking to bybanen. It looks as if everything here's calm but it wasn't. There were storm and yeaa stormss |
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