It's a quote. I come up with it myself last night when i was lying on bed thinking about someone who i'd like to name Mr. pretending. It's a fake name obviously but he actually exist.
Here goes the quotes
-I won't forget you .. not because you mean so much to me. But how can i ever forget someone who i don't even remember in the first place.
-You're not a piece of shit because even a piece of shit still too much for you to be. You're just not exist. You're just nothing.
Ouch much?
I'm surprised at how i can be so mean cause usually I'm a nice girl. yes very nice you could slap me and i will still be smiling at you. no.
And I'm surprised that i actually devoted my brain so much into thinking of quotes for this Mr. Pretending. Sarcastic quotes like this usually use a lot more energy and passion than any other kind of quotes I would say. He should be proud of himself that after all this time he still influences me so much. But I'm sure he doesn't even know he does. I actually don't think he ever realized any of the shits he did that causing me to feel like a total idiot. He's brainless and probably slightly heartless too and he never seems to know what's going on. Or it could be that he knows all along but pretending not to know. That's how I named him Mr. pretending. And gosh just to hurt me even more I don't think he ever think of me anymore. And that makes me feel so damn stupid like i am the most pathetic girl in the whole entire universe who still cannot get over him and how pretending asshole and fake he is. It really sucks.
Sometimes i can almost convince myself to believe how much of an asshole he is. But most of the time i just think of him and smile pathetically alone then after caught myself thinking of him again for the eighty thousand times it just left me feeling so fucked up. I hate every seconds i spend hating over him cause i know i can never really hate him.
I just need to get over him. Get over every stupid things about him then i can be in peace again.
I am apologize for such deep intense anger i have you could probably feel it through every cursing words i swear but i can't help it.
Quote of the day:
''Give your love to those who deserve''
(I need to dig real deep into my brain and bury this quote in there, memorize it good and act accordingly just for the sake of my fragile heart!)
Today i am thankful for:
-I was able to force myself to go out for a little bit (to the supermarket)
-The 2 delicious cakes i bought from the market. Wanted to just eat one today and save another for tomorrow. But it was good so i just finished them all today. This happens all the time no surprise I'm fat.
-Thank you for new pens. They are awesome. Makes my crappy writing goes smoother than everr. It's just a pen but hey this is like GOD of all pens. It's that amazing cause I didn't expect it to write good or anything. I just bought them because they are super cheap. 20 baht for a pack of 8. And look how cheap stuff can actually be good. And how much I LOVE the 20 baht shop here!
Oh yea and I ain't got a diary yet cause they don't have that kind of diary i want. But instead got a notebook which i use it now as a temporary diary since i wanted to write so much with my new goddess pen.
This is like a school kid can't get over new stationary.
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