There's a possibility I may have to go work in Canada...again..far away from home and everything i know..and grandmom...
It scares me every time to think that one day she won't be here with me anymore. It tears me up almost every time thinkin about it. I dont know why I have such a special bond with her. So special i know in my heart i'll never feel like this again with anyone else. There's noone like her in this world. And if i lost her i will lost this feelings forever. How will i survive like that? It scares me to the core. I think of it quite often actually. Dunno if it's good or bad but I want to be prepare for it. I've never scared of anything this much before in my life and this clearly the most scariest feeling in the world. How can i live without my grandmom? My precious grandmom. My favorite person in the whole world. My best friend. I will miss her so much and it will hurt so bad. I just knew it already that when that time comes.. that it's going to be the most difficult time in my life. I can't see how i will cope with that but i want to believe in myself that i'm strong enough and when that time really comes I will find a way to continue living my life and keeping her in my heart and realize that this is life and this happens all the time to everyone.
No comments:
Post a Comment